“La, la la”
I can hear it.
“Y*% N$*^i$# t! *e”
Grrr… still can’t quite get it.
“La, la la”
And now it’s gone again.
I might be losing it…
Although I suppose that’s nothing new coming from a proxy huh? Let’s move onto something a little more relevant then. We arrived at our destination. My favorite shit hole in the whole wide world! That’s right, I’m in New York. Such great memories to look back on like how my entire squad died here and of course there are those poor bastards I cut down here after I lost it. Yep, this doesn’t scream fuck me or anything.
But wait, there’s more! I’ve also been grounded so I’m not going anywhere. But New York is a big town right? Lots of marks on my list to keep myself busy. I’ll just… oh look at that! My fucking list has been locked. I’m also not allowed to hunt it seems. Just fuck me huh? I thought the scenarios were an annoying waste of time but now I have been promoted to sitting on my ass. I think I actually prefer the mind the games, at least parts of those are fun.
To that end Fracture and I rented a movie. He did not shut up the entire time and that was with me punching him and yelling at him. Whatever elaborate shit they have brewing for me better kill me, because I think I’m back to being a week from killing Fracture again. I might really do it this time.
Fracture assures me it shouldn’t come to that. He’s apparently wrapping up the details on some sort of arrangement. Ominous. I’m fucking thrilled. It just better happen soon so I can get the hell out of this shit hole.
I-I just need… to go kill something. New York won’t mind if one of their homeless goes missing right?
…I’m not exactly getting a no from Fracture…
Fuck it. Someone dies.
Swan out. Stay positive!
I can hear it.
“Y*% N$*^i$# t! *e”
Grrr… still can’t quite get it.
“La, la la”
And now it’s gone again.
I might be losing it…
Although I suppose that’s nothing new coming from a proxy huh? Let’s move onto something a little more relevant then. We arrived at our destination. My favorite shit hole in the whole wide world! That’s right, I’m in New York. Such great memories to look back on like how my entire squad died here and of course there are those poor bastards I cut down here after I lost it. Yep, this doesn’t scream fuck me or anything.
But wait, there’s more! I’ve also been grounded so I’m not going anywhere. But New York is a big town right? Lots of marks on my list to keep myself busy. I’ll just… oh look at that! My fucking list has been locked. I’m also not allowed to hunt it seems. Just fuck me huh? I thought the scenarios were an annoying waste of time but now I have been promoted to sitting on my ass. I think I actually prefer the mind the games, at least parts of those are fun.
To that end Fracture and I rented a movie. He did not shut up the entire time and that was with me punching him and yelling at him. Whatever elaborate shit they have brewing for me better kill me, because I think I’m back to being a week from killing Fracture again. I might really do it this time.
Fracture assures me it shouldn’t come to that. He’s apparently wrapping up the details on some sort of arrangement. Ominous. I’m fucking thrilled. It just better happen soon so I can get the hell out of this shit hole.
I-I just need… to go kill something. New York won’t mind if one of their homeless goes missing right?
…I’m not exactly getting a no from Fracture…
Fuck it. Someone dies.
Swan out. Stay positive!
I take it the chillstep didn't help with the singing, then?
ReplyDeleteIf you're going to commit random acts of violence, though-- please do me a favor and don't get yourself shiv'd. Internal bleeding. Not fun.
And I'm staying positive. Maybe I should start mantraing that at you!
I honestly forgot about the chillstep. Been listening to the radio when I can stand to but the comercials piss me off.
DeleteI wasn't shiv'd but I'll stay careful so it doesn't happen.
I'm positively furious all the time. Does that count? I'll answer that: Fuck Yes.
Seriously. The chillstep is very pattern-oriented, but with enough variance that it's nearly impossible to get any one part stuck in your head. It's relaxing instead of catchy and agitating. It might do your head wonders.
DeleteGet shiv'd, and I swear I'll find you and shiv you if you ever come anywhere near here.
That's being angry, Swan. Not positive.
I'll shiv myself long before I let you shiv me!
DeleteAnd what's wrong with angry Swan. I'm pretty sure that's the only Swan you know. Why don't you just criticize my entire being!
I'm disappointed in Fracture for neglecting to keep you inside.
ReplyDeleteI needed him out of house for a little while so the bruises could heal. Sue me. Grounded just means 'Don't Leave Town'. I don't care nearly enough about random homeless people to choose them over me.
DeleteYou sound heartless as can be.
DeleteAt least his victims will be dead and done with him. I'm the one stuck with his crazy ass. They're the lucky ones.
DeleteDo you always sound this bitter?
DeleteJust when I am this bitter.
DeleteSo, all the time.
Delete87.3 percent of the time. Maaayyybe 87.6.
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DeleteWhat do you do with the other 12.4 percent of your time?
DeleteSleep.
DeleteI'm sure you have very bitter dreams, too.
DeleteNot so. I have wonderful dreams... makes my time awake all the more bitter.
DeleteDo tell. Most of us dream so frightfully.
DeleteFor one, I'm not babysitting a violent man child thing in my dreams.
DeleteI would certainly hope you don't dream of Swan. That would just be creepy.
DeleteI dream of prettier things.
DeleteLike what? C'mon. It's not like I'll hold it against you.
DeleteLike me! Who else?
DeleteAre you saying you are pretty? Because, man, that's just narcissistic. Seriously, what do you dream of?
DeleteI dream of me. I'm all I've ever known and ever will know.
DeleteOf your past, your future, your love, or what you can't have?
DeleteI'm too persistent for this game, Fracture. I know to ask for the details, rather than accepting the bullshit like all the others do.
I dream of me fucking pretty things.
DeleteI'm not done running you in circles yet.
So your dreams are Freudian! I thought so. So, whatcha fuckin'? Animals, ghosties, corpses, long lost loves, or plushies? Two can play this game, Fracture, love.
DeleteAll of the above on the right occasion and then some... minus the animals. That's just weird.
Delete...bravo. You are certainly fun to talk to. Okay, hmm. Are your dreams /only/ about fucking pretty things, or do you get bored and masturbate in them too?
DeleteOkay, okay, back to serious time. I'm being a brat again. Do you ever dream about your life before you lost your privileges as a higher ranking proxy? Before you had to deal with Swan?
I dream about the family I lost,... and Casey.
DeleteThe dead lady. Were you.. close with her?
DeleteYa... I didn't get to spend a of face time with her but she was always there... even after she wasn't.
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